Hi friend! If you're new here, welcome to my online space documenting my journey to live a life GUIDED. Today, I’m sharing Part 3 of my story of coming home to self and source over the past year… and a big change that I’ve been slowlyyy sharing - going back to my birth name. I expand more in my video podcast linked below. You can watch Episode 1 and Episode 2 for the moments leading up to it. Thank you for reading and being a part of my journey, as always and YAY for a new chapter! x

“It’s time to come back to your name. The name that was chosen for you.”

I started to hear and feel this message in my meditations at the end of 2023. It felt right in my soul, but terrifying to my mind. I had been called “Jenni” by everyone I knew since I could remember. It was my entire identity.

I wasn’t ready yet, but God started to place other peoples’ stories in front of me. Stories of name changes, the meaning of birth names and the power behind the name that was picked for you.

It wasn’t until I was in Bali this past February, that I received a confirmation I couldn’t ignore. During my retreat, one of the members (who I’ll call “C”) shared the story about how she made her decision to sign up. She had felt pulled to the retreat, but was looking for another sign of confirmation.

Well, during an intuitive reading she received it.

The woman mentioned a "Jennifer" that was present in her life who she was meant to work with.

C replied, "I don't know a Jennifer, but I know a Jenni," and the woman said, "That’s her.”

*FULL CHILLS*

C had zero idea that I was sitting with going back to my birth name and that her story would further confirm everything that I had been feeling. I remember hearing her words and having a resonance shoot through my body.

I knew that this was what wanted to happen next.

I ended up sharing what I had been feeling with the women and their support was the push I needed to explore it. I even introduced myself as “Jennifer” in our closing ceremony on the last day. The irony is not lost on me that I created a retreat for other women to “remember” themselves and I unexpectedly experienced my own coming home alongside them. Grateful!

From that point forward, I introduced myself as “Jennifer” on my travels through Bali and Sri Lanka. It was weird, awkward and liberating at the same time. I messed up along the way - forgetting, pausing, awkwardly spitting it out, wondering, “Who even. am. I. right now!!”…

But God continued to reflect back that this was the move.

It was my permission slip to show up authentically and be the person I had been feeling called to step into for over a year now. The people that I met over those next two months were further confirmation of what can happen when you live from your heart… you find soul connections with humans who feel like they’ve been in your life for decades.

This change represents so much more than just a name and living authentically for me, it is the full reclamation of my relationship to God, my true identity and my mission here.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t scared, nervous and a little awkward about it! It’s still sinking in and part of why it’s taken me an extra month to post this episode (!!!)…

But I’m ready… So here we are.

I AM… JENNIFER!!! *cue confetti*

I share more about my story, what it means moving forward, PLUS the first sneak at what I’m building next below…

If you’ve been following along my journey and it’s resonating with you, I would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to hear from you. Please comment or send me a message (@jennifer.adishian).

And if you’ve watched/listened to any part of my story thus far, THANK YOU. I appreciate you.

ILY

Jennifer

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